My first impression was of utter dismay. I thought to myself, "Where and what I have done wrong to deserve this?" Then I recalled my recent memories for any signs of miss behavior. I could not see what I had done wrong. All I could see were sincere attempts to reach God. That had always been my intention.
I was in deep contemplation when I heard a voice in my head.
"Calm down and try to see the situation".
I was thinking, "Who is the creator of this darkness?"
This was unlike any darkness I had seen. It was completely dark. I had witnessed the intense light of meditation many times and this seemed like the other extreme of the spectrum; intense darkness. Suddenly I was in total awe of the majesty of this darkness; such a Divine creation; a darkness the like of which we have never experienced on earth.
"God is the Creator of this darkness." I answered.
"Then this must also be part of God's love and I must endure this darkness".
I thought when I get out of this darkness I would be purified.